Recently I cut my hair short. This is something I do, like a season that comes around every five years or so, that I enjoy for the qualities it embodies and then when the season is done, begin the journey back to long hair. Usually straight after it is cut I have a few fleeting moments of panic, a day or two to adjust and then a settling into the new look, like settling into a new home. People have said ‘oh you are brave to do that’ and I reply ‘but it is just hair’. On reflection though I am beginning to think that like Samson it does have a bit of magic embodied in it.
Why? Because it can make me feel like a different person. Like I have taken on a new personality. Tell me how can it do that? I know of women who are so attached to their hair, like it would be cutting off and arm or a leg. I know of women who use it like a canvas, changing it’s appearance every few weeks or so. Who hasn’t felt fantastic after you have been even to just have it trimmed. See magical powers! What part of ‘us’ is invested in it?
When my hair is long it represents my ‘earth child’ qualities, that free spirited, flowing, wild part of me. How it is cut now it is much more chic and styled. For a brief moment I actually felt constrained and thought actually thought ‘this is not me’ and then I saw the sassy, pixie, elegant aspects of myself in it. My thoughts then were ‘Ooooo look at the hidden characteristics I can now bring out and play with’. I know that I am all of these things within all of the time but it is like opening a secret window from which to see a new view.
My husband of course prefers it long (what is with that too?) but I think he may also enjoy the playful side of this woman. Now if I add a bit of colour and a bit of product too who knows what adventures I may have. Perhaps next time I’ll shave it (oh that’s right – already done that).