So here we are in 2016. I have to say I am kinda glad, 2015 was one of those years for me that you can’t help but wish away. I was pleased to watch it slip by at the stroke of midnight. It’s not as though it was particularly tumultuous or challenging or depressing… it is just that I completely lost who I am… and that was a bit scary.
You see the first half of the year all of my ‘roles’ were stripped away. All those ways I identify myself as me were shaken up and I felt my foundation crumble a little. It culminated in me laying in my bed in the dark, tears on my cheeks and heaviness in my heart. I had a strong sense that I could walk out of my life at the moment and no one would notice – a bit melodramatic perhaps – but that was how I felt. After I allowed myself to feel the anger and grief around that I eventually noticed a welcoming sense of peace around it and then unbelievably, a sense of freedom. If I wasn’t any of those roles, if I didn’t wear those expectations and sense of obligation, I could be anything I wanted to be.
Of course I am not running away to be a gypsy or divorcing my husband and family but it did make me question why I couldn’t have that same sense of freedom in my present circumstances. This led me on a journey for the rest of the year that allowed me to re-examine and reconnect with my relationship to joy and grace and ultimately to Spirit. It was less about what I ‘do’ and more about how I ‘be’. It led me to step back from validation from those roles and into a stronger sense of self. I recognized that I am everything and nothing at the same time and that my specific walk on this Earth is the twist. And I have to say I like being a little twisted.
So how do we live as nothing and everything. Here are a few tips I garnered over my 2015 journey –
- Keep coming back to centre – in times of doubt, anxiety or confusion bring yourself, your awareness back to your centre (check in). Look at your ‘problem’ or ‘challenge’ from your true perspective (that is not influenced by others) and check in with your higher self. Allow your inner wisdom to guide you.
- Walk through life in loving detachment – We all have ‘roles’ that we play, but if you fill those roles without being attached to those roles then you can bring wisdom, perspective, humour and grace into how they are expressed. It is like watching yourself on stage, knowing that the real you is not affected by the drama happening.
- Cultivate interconnectedness – I know I am an energetic being, Spirit and science tell us this is so, as is everything else around us. Practising an awareness of this energetic connecting and mingling brings you closer to it all. Look through ‘God eyes’ and see people as their soul selves.
I hope your 2016 is also a year of discovery for you….
I went to go shopping the other day – some groceries, a new top, some fruit and vege. It wasn’t until I was half way through the grocery shop that I became aware of my habit of mindful shopping and I began to question when shopping became a strategic and time consuming exercise. Not only do I look for the best buy, but I am also reading ingredients and checking for certain symbols and words on the labels. Seriously – it has become a tactical task. I do it because I care and am concerned at what my consumer dollar is supporting. My question is, why should I have to? Is it too much to freakin ask – Continue reading “Is It Too Much To Freakin Ask….?” »
I have always enjoyed motor bikes, well sitting on the back of them anyway. I travelled across Australia on one, I recently did the Mae Hong Son loop in Thailand on one and my husband and I often go for Sunday rides. I know it’s not for everyone but I go into a ‘space’ on the back of a bike and enjoy the proximity of it – to my husband, the road and the environs. Well one day I just happened to mention to said husband, “I wonder what it would be like to actually ride the bike on my own”. Before you know it he had purchased a cheap (so if I damaged it, it wouldn’t matter) bike and I was off to the Big Pineapple car park for lessons with him. I can tell you it has been quite a journey and although I haven’t got my license yet, I am learning quite a lot about myself. The top 5 things I have learned while learning to ride a motor bike. Continue reading “The Zen of Motorbike Lessons” »
I’m a thinker, in fact I over-think and over-process often. I am prone to headaches and lying awake at night. My mind and I have a love hate relationship. It likes to make lists and sort through stuff and I have to engage in my ‘calming’ practices to get it to chill out. I think it is an Aries trait also. I am also a ‘doer’. I get things done. I am productive and constructive and busy – often. I don’t think busy is such a great thing for me either. So when thinking about 2014 – how it was and 2015 -how I wish to be a, word came to mind. One that could assist me to slow down and above all else enjoy. It would help me to let go of my mind madness and busy bee energy. My 2015 word ….. Savouring! Continue reading “No 2015 resolution but a 2015 Word….” »
There is a lot of ‘talk’ around finding your purpose. It is suggested that everyone has a life’s purpose a reason for being here, a special gift or job to do. And although this may be true, seeking and searching for and often not finding or discovering this individualized and unique purpose can be challenging and worse, stressful. There is a certain implication that if we don’t find and live our purpose that we are somehow incomplete, or not fulfilling a destiny. I do believe we have innate gifts and talents, which when we know what they are and begin to share them, can create immense joy and satisfaction in our lives – but striving to find ‘our purpose’ can sometimes hold us back, create barriers, expectations and idealism that do not serve us. What if we just let it go and instead…
We just focus on living a life of purpose or living a purpose-filled life….. Continue reading “Life’s Purpose – Let It Go” »